PRETEND

i'd like one of them pretty masquerade masks
unique and exquisite
one of every colour
one for each season

but i can't afford them
they're too expensive and too exquisite
far too nice and far too glam
for my face that seems to be disintegrating

so i walk with the pulsing crowd
feeling part of it
but still afraid of it
of who i am

so i like to pretend
so i play with my mind
and other peoples' too
and it makes me happy

but just for a while
just for a while
it saves me time
it saves me time

but i really only want one of them pretty masquerade masks
no reflection of who i am from any glass
no inkling of where i might've come from
just me and my pretty masquerade mask

but i can't afford one
no i can't afford one
so i play pretend
i play pretend.

-M Pap- (Friday, 30 May 2008)