A DIRTY OLD HAG AT THE LAUNDROMAT

fucking old hag
she's got a kitten under her right armpit
but you don't listen cuz she's a cripple
and you put in yo' penny to start it up
but she's gone and you stare
at an empty spot that was once there
afraid to fill it
too afraid you'll kill it
like you did before
all over again
all over again

and the whistle blows
and you're young and sweating
and you're a nancy
a faggot twisting
in starched pants
and you recieve a blow
from whats-his-name jo
and they strip you naked
and you don't care
cuz it's happening
all over again
all over again

and a pistol sounds
a whistle blares
in your ear
you're going deaf
you're an old hag
an old hag
smoking a lit fag
and you're alone
all over again
all over again

raging war
bloody battles
clarion calls
silver pikes
medallions
oh is it over?
or is it still going on
your mama's not hugging you
maybe it's not over?
your head is bursting
all over again
all over again

cat's piss
smell of rotting bodies
a leaky faucet
a broken nose
a thousand arms
reaching out at you
bulbs flashing
too many voices
your head hurts
all over again
all over again

it's the end of the line
and you want to start over
and you're lying in the bed
a hospital
dirty old man
wheezing beside you
you pick up your crowbar
beat him
and he bleeds oh he bleeds
all over again
all over again

soft music
melancholic sounds
drifting through
someone's playing Paganini
oh how you love Paganini.
smells are wafting
wafting through the air
a baker's shop
your polished shoes
who are you now?
are you rich?
are you different?
is it finally happening?
''no you stupid fuck''
someone spits on your shoes
all over again
all over again

but now you drift
you're a frivolous youth
stuck in what feels like
the mundane school-life
but you're alone
and away from chatter
it's peaceful
but far too dreamy to be solid
you're sated
and you float
where are you now?
who are you?
i don't care
i don't care
because it's not happening anymore.


all over again.
no more.

-M Pap- (Sunday, 11 May 2008)